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This week, Penny Slinger shares a new photo collage series titled My Body in a Box—an ongoing project created during these last weeks of self-isolation, seeking to explore the psychological entrapment and fears that accompany the experience. As Slinger has done since the 1960s, here she uses her own image and body as subject to process a range of feelings and reactions. Accompanied by her poetry and prose that are evocative of states of mind and being, Slinger’s offering is one of pain and poignancy, as well as transcendence. This series will continue to grow as a living archive, during the span of shelter in place.
Collages and poems: © Penny Slinger
Photos of Penny Slinger by Dhiren Dasu
FIRST THINGS FIRST (HOARDING)
Like a squirrel
Ardently gathering nuts
In the last days
Of summer
Storing them away
For winter's bleak
Foraging
Taking care
Of bodily needs
For who knows
When the sun
Will bless the earth once more?
I will not starve! she says
Though frost covers the land
And snow conceals
The verdant trees
Now skeletons
In a grey landscape
She stores their present bounty
Against a future famine
Knowing
That all things pass
And she
Like the maiden
Will gather rosebuds
While she may...
STEALTH (PROTECTION)
Creating walls of protection
Against an unseen enemy
Who knows no walls
Armour
Of immunity
To ward off
An invisible assailant
With manners
In the gutter
Perverted
And subtle
As the wind....
Who knows
What crack
It can creep through
Through which fabric
It may seep
Beneath the radar
This ninja adversary
Is nimble and adept
Hiding in plain sight
In anyone we meet
So I form a citadel
Of myself
And stay in my sterile castle
Untouchable
Sealed with antiseptic
Vigilant
Hardly daring
To breathe.
BRICK WALL
Within my palace
Of self-construction
A brick wall
Seals the way
No way in
No way out
and no way through
Trapped
In solidity
Frozen
In time
Petrified
In a state
Of rigidity
In a place
Without potential
Without ability
To effect change
Solid state…
There is but one way
To dissolve the wall
To peel away
The wallpaper…
I will claim the heroine's path
Dissolve the wall
For I am not a slave
To matter
But a humble servant
Of imagination's power
Believing in
Self-transcendence
As the only tool
That takes a psychic sledgehammer
To the wall that kills dreams
To the confining principle
That places matter
Over mind
Mind does matter
But the substance of dreams
Is big as the sky
The pathways of consciousness
Have no limitations
LIMITS
Taking the measure
Of the situation
Staking out
My limitations
Feeling the shape
Of the box I am in
The height
The width
The breadth
The depth
So I may ascertain
The ideal box
To reconstruct
Once I have
Broken
This frame
GHOSTS
Having worked so hard
On addressing fears
I was surprised
To find them
Haunting my psych like
ghosts of Christmas past.
Awakening in the dead of night
Stomach all a flutter
My body is still responding
To the threat of illness
And untimely death
Death itself may not be
My ogre
But the thought of losing life
Before my chosen time
And the body's aversion to
Suffering
Is just a fact of life
I cannot be transparent
And reflect the truth
If I do not expose
The ghouls
That still haunt
This mortal frame
My consciousness is refined
But my body cries like a baby.
BUTTERFLIES IN THE STOMACH
I awoke
In the darkness
With butterflies
raging in my stomach
Like wild beasts
Fluttering
Like sails in a tempest
Their tiny wings
Distraught
I could not calm their anguish
Because they were
Part of me
All my unconscious terrors
Battling within
For space to breathe
For room to fly
In the acid room
Of my belly
Panic stricken
Inner child.
METAMORPHOSIS
I climbed into this dark place
A writhing grub
Wriggling against
My own mortality
Since then I have been
Melting down
Liquifying
The substance of my sense of self
Of society
Making a fine old brew
Of all preconceptions
Now I find my mind
Creating pictures
Icons calling me
To take my place
In glorious emergence
Oh Cinderella me
May I make my slipper fit
As I slip out of the slimy soup
And rise
Winged and glorious
To fly
Now part of nature
Reabsorbed
Reformed
By reflected light
All butterflies and rainbows
Fully prismatic
With wings
The color of sky